You’ll be so upset if you knew what I did; you’ll be so disappointed.
You’ll be even more upset if you knew what I had to do to clear up the mess I made; you’ll be so heartbroken.
I thought of you & I cried even harder cos I knew how hurt you’ll be.
My actions do not reflect how well you’ve taught me at all.
I owe you an apology cos my actions must have embarrassed you so badly.
I’ve been brought up well but I didn’t learn well enough to reflect that.